1 High School Graduation

18 years of life

Countless memories

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What a weekend.

Soon... Soon...

I want to fly like Peter Pan and go far off to Neverland,

I want to journey past the stars and go beyond the shores and sand.

I want to smell the buttercups and dance among the violets,

I want to soar near aeroplanes and wave to baffled pilots.

And I want to dip my toes down deep into the cooling mud,

I want to rest by river banks and bake out in the sun.

I want to play with tortoises, and I want to play with hares,

I want to run a race with them from here to over there.

And I want to chase the dragon flies amid the flowered fields,

I want to watch their tiny wings, and the power that they wield.

Then I want to have a tea party, with dear old Billy Goat,

I want to listen to his tales and read the books he wrote.

I want to sip on warm sunshine and feast on honey cakes,

I want to eat our black mud pies, the ones that we did make.

And I want to sleep under the shade of great-grandmother tree.

I want to rest on cushioned grass and spin sweet scented dreams.

And I want to cast off all my worries, just like Peter Pan,

I want to live forever... far away in Neverland.

Times past...

I am sad to say that xanga has lost its sparkling charm and life has tarnished my desire to update it. But that's ok. What say we give a big post, just for old time's sake, eh? Because...

It's been a while...

I wish I could say all the words jumbled up inside my head. All the laughter. All the dreams. All the anticipation. All the fear. But I'm not sure it's possible. And, quite frankly, I'd rather not release the reservoir of my thoughts. No use depleting my store now is there? However, I'd love to let that trickle flow just a little more than it has lately. Maybe let it wander a little farther from the source.

Just maybe...

I find myself searching for that sentence. The one that captures all that has been happening. I find myself thirsting for a short, to the point, easily read, fantastically exact sentence to convey how things have been going recently. To sketch a picture of where I am at the moment. But then I have to laugh at myself because I come to the realization that...

It can't be done.

Life is speeding by at a break neck pace. I cannot even remember what I had for breakfast much less how things are going in general. I have but a few highlights. A few stones to be spotted along this quickening river. Memory is quite confused and I... Well, I am waiting. And standing. And reading. And writing. And...

Well, you get the picture.

I have laughed. And cried. I have loved. And lost. I have tried to do this thing called living, and though I am awful at it, God has somehow used those efforts for His glory. And though I count myself a failure, His mercy fills my veins, and I cannot help but realize that He has something better for me.

And that is encouraging to hear, don't you think?

So there it is. In this jumble of words that do not at all make sense, I have told you how I am doing. {I am on a journey.} And, though I thought it impossible to sum it all up at first, I think that pretty much covers it...